Just 1% of unhappiness, is enough to overhaul 99% of happiness.

-black clouds-

今天，不开心。很累。
不开心，不是因为FOC，虽然可能占了1%，可是主要原因来自于一个我还没回信的简讯。不是还没，是应该永远都不会回的简讯。

该在的，不在。
不该在的，却好像有在。

最近是怎么了，老天爷好像一直在作弄我。是要给我考验吗？还是要我学会怎么了解自己要得是什么。不然，就是要我烦到发疯。说真的，我一直都知道自己要的是什么，只是为什么老天爷要一而再，再而三地考验我的坚持？

很乱，不知道为什么。

Hmm... just read something which sound so logical to me. It does brighten my day a lil'.

10 simple(not so simple actually) ways to save yourself from messing up your life

1. Stop taking so much notice of how you feel. How you feel is how you feel. It’ll pass soon. What you’re thinking is what you’re thinking. It’ll go too. Tell yourself that whatever you feel, you feel; whatever you think, you think. Since you can’t stop yourself thinking, or prevent emotions from arising in your mind, it makes no sense to be proud or ashamed of either. You didn’t cause them. Only your actions are directly under your control. They’re the only proper cause of pleasure or shame.

2. Let go of worrying. It often makes things worse. The more you think about something bad, the more likely it is to happen. When you’re hair-trigger primed to notice the first sign of trouble, you’ll surely find something close enough to convince yourself it’s come.

3. Ease up on the internal life commentary. If you want to be happy, stop telling yourself you’re miserable. People are always telling themselves how they feel, what they’re thinking, what others feel about them, what this or that event really means. Most of it’s imagination. The rest is equal parts lies and misunderstandings. You have only the most limited understanding of what others feel about you. Usually they’re no better informed on the subject; and they care about it far less than you do. You have no way of knowing what this or that event really means. Whatever you tell yourself will be make-believe.

4. Take no notice of your inner critic. Judging yourself is pointless. Judging others is half-witted. Whatever you achieve, someone else will always do better. However bad you are, others are worse. Since you can tell neither what’s best nor what’s worst, how can you place yourself correctly between them? Judging others is foolish since you cannot know all the facts, cannot create a reliable or objective scale, have no means of knowing whether your criteria match anyone else’s, and cannot have more than a limited and extremely partial view of the other person. Who cares about your opinion anyway?

5. Give up on feeling guilty. Guilt changes nothing. It may make you feel you’re accepting responsibility, but it can’t produce anything new in your life. If you feel guilty about something you’ve done, either do something to put it right or accept you screwed up and try not to do so again. Then let it go. If you’re feeling guilty about what someone else did, see a psychiatrist. That’s insane.

6. Stop being concerned what the rest of the world says about you. Nasty people can’t make you mad. Nice people can’t make you happy. Events or people are simply events or people. They can’t make you anything. You have to do that for yourself. Whatever emotions arise in you as a result of external events, they’re powerless until you pick them up and decide to act on them. Besides, most people are far too busy thinking about themselves (and worry what you are are thinking and saying about them) to be concerned about you.

7. Stop keeping score. Numbers are just numbers. They don’t have mystical powers. Because something is expressed as a number, a ratio or any other numerical pattern doesn’t mean it’s true. Plenty of lovingly calculated business indicators are irrelevant, gibberish, nonsensical, or just plain wrong. If you don’t understand it, or it’s telling you something bizarre, ignore it. There’s nothing scientific about relying on false data. Nor anything useful about charting your life by numbers that were silly in the first place.

8. Don’t be concerned that your life and career aren’t working out the way you planned. The closer you stick to any plan, the quicker you’ll go wrong. The world changes constantly. However carefully you analyzed the situation when you made the plan, if it’s more than a few days old, things will already be different. After a month, they’ll be very different. After a year, virtually nothing will be the same as it was when you started. Planning is only useful as a discipline to force people to think carefully about what they know and what they don’t. Once you start, throw the plan away and keep your eyes on reality.

9. Don’t let others use you to avoid being responsible for their own decisions. To hold yourself responsible for someone else’s success and happiness demeans them and proves you’ve lost the plot. It’s their life. They have to live it. You can’t do it for them; nor can you stop them from messing it up if they’re determined to do so. The job of a supervisor is to help and supervise. Only control-freaks and some others with a less serious mental disability fail to understand this.

10. Don’t worry about about your personality. You don’t really have one. Personality, like ego, is a concept invented by your mind. It doesn’t exist in the real world. Personality is a word for the general impression that you give through your words and actions. If your personality isn’t likeable today, don’t worry. You can always change it, so long as you allow yourself to do so. What fixes someone’s personality in one place is a determined effort on their part—usually through continually telling themselves they’re this or that kind of person and acting on what they say. If you don’t like the way you are, make yourself different. You’re the only person who’s standing in your way.

:)

今天，我笨到发慌。。。

笨到连我都觉得我是哪根筋不对，笨到连解释都不想去解释，笨到连猪都向我致敬。

笨！笨！笨！

笨的，也不直有我。。。 给的什么烂理由嘛！笨！

而聪明的。。。也就直有那位贱到不行的贱女人！！ 哈哈！！ 真的有够贱！

贱z。贱z。贱z。贱z。贱z。贱z。贱z。贱z。贱z。

哎哟，就是你了，别再怀疑。我说的那个贱女人就是你！！
就从今天起。。。你就叫做。。。
贱女人！！

哈！哈！哈！

说到这里，刚刚问了问 Uncle Ali，问他说我有做错了吗？他说。。。"kinda"。 有的意思。怎么办。。。我真的是笨到了一个不行啦！！！

我真的做错了吗？

不要怪我无情，我只是不想你受伤。。。

As usual, went to Shy's house for mj. Shy never buy donuts!! So dissapointed... Hmm, I realised it's not good to get to know people better. Once you're closer to a person, he'll start jixiaoing you... rah, 我快要被Shy气死了！！

He is getting more and more 不客气 already lor... No more Shy le!

I collected Jared in the morning, so during our MJ break, they ask me to drive to 85 for supper. Drove there, can't find a legal lot. So I parked illegaly under a tree. Wrong wrong move. My Jared was shitted on!! RAH!! 1st day only kana shitted on... I think the birds are trained to aim at cars that parked at illegal lots. HAha. Stupid birds, so late already, duno why haven't sleep, and start shitting. -_-'''

Saw the Idol guy, Jonathan Leong. Din't know KY knows him, they were in the same platoon or sumthing in commandos.

I also dint know that KY is allegy to seafood. He ate Otah, and apparently, they put prawn inside. So he started feeling weird and stuff. So scary... However, looks like MJ not only can prevent Sinile, it cures allegy to food too!! Haha! KY was cured by MJ!

Longest MJ ever played... 4 rounds! Went home at 6am. Was darn tired. Dropped dead on the bed straight away.

Hmmm... guess that was my last MJ game at Shy's house le. After this week, it's gonna be FOC FOC FOC and CurL CurL CurL, no more MJ MJ MJ......... Also, gonna find another name for Shy, coz he's not longer Shy... mabbe can call him... NotShy. :)

今天我和好朋友在msn聊天。

好朋友在我和他分手后，曾经问过我，说当我和他在一起时，有没对别人动过心。说没有，当然是骗人的，但那时的我，还是选择了他。当时，我把A君告诉了好朋友。

我和A君在两年前相遇。因为拥有些共同的兴趣，所以很谈得来。对他的感觉，说不上是喜欢。应该是那种一见如故的心情吧。当时的我，心里也只有“他”，所以对A君的感觉，也就能如此。不久，A君也谈恋爱了。就因为这样，我们也渐渐的疏远了。

两年后的今天，我没有了“他”，A君也和“她”分手了。而我对A君的感觉也早就淡去了。但是，事情好像有点转变。今天，我又和好朋友聊起了A君。我想，她应该能够了解我的心情。因为她好像也经历过类似的事情。A君是个好人，也是个好朋友。也许是我想太多了，但我不想事情是我想象的那样，我不想失去A君这个朋友。

不管未来会发生什么，我任然希望，A君是我永远的朋友。而我那位好朋友啊，不要再为我担心啦！我们都会找到属于我们的幸福的！！

WAh...

I was tired out today. Din't have much sleep last night, can't sleep, duno why. So I woke up at 9am. Tried to sleep again, but to no avail. Finally after breakfast and a few mins of TV, I manage to get a bit more sleep.

Awaken at 12pm. Haiz, 好不容易 manage to sleep le, then this bugger tutor called. Tried to sleep again... Lin called. Then I've decided that, forget it le, shall head for the pool as I've promised myself in the morning. Lin said his gonna go NZ. Haha, thot he won Toto wor... He asked what I want from there, told him I want a sheep, and he said, "okie, 说到做到". I forgot to add, I wan a live one... HAhaha...

Went to swim at Delta Swimming Complex. Sun was good, but I din't any tan in the end... why huh?






IF I weren't...
IF you din't...
I might just...
And we might just...
But since time has gone by,
and things happened the way they were.
I guess...

Hmm..

I was pretty shocked by what Shy say about me. SHY... said... I'M SHY! HAhaa... so it proves that I'm even shyer than Shy!! Siao siao one, say I don't dare to look at him in his eyes, but I look at him for what siah... HAhha, not like as if he is very shuai, then I can keep staring at him. Iyah, 总而言之... I'm shy lah. Shy ah Shy, can you stop behaving like my frens? 1st he is the 2nd person who thinks that my email is "smellYcloud" instead of "smellDcloud" after John. Then he is also the 2nd person who keep calling me Sotong after Uncle Ali. Looking forward to next mj session at Shy's house... he say he's gonna go queue for Donuts!! Yay~

Went for supper with Lin at The Cheese Prata. Misses the place. Used to go there for supper often, esp. with Ah Ma. Asked Uncle Ali to join us. Another shy one. Too bad, he missed the prata there :P. Then went to Ke's house to collect my long overdue stuffs from hall. Luckily Lin was there to lead the way, if not I think I'll lose my way. Too long never go Ke's house le, can't recognise anything there. Reached home at about 1230am. Then Uncle Ali said he wanted to ask me to go for house visit at his house. HUh?! House visit at 1230am?! HAhaha... crazy.

Went for a Hair Cut @ taka with AhKah. We saw Lee WeiSong on our way to MRT... err, he does look abit gay in person, but god knows whether he is really one. None of my business anyway... haha.

By the way, I've thought of a name for the new car. Jared. Reason being, it's a RED colour JAZZ. So... JAZZRED... and JARED... hahaha. Okie, lame. BUt oh well, just got news that Jared is coming this Friday!! Yay... finally...

So looking forward to more supper and mj sessions with Jared~~

Haiyo... been losing money on mj siah... gonna be broke!!

Played sooo much mj this 2 days.

Played with Ah Pang, Heng and 01 at my house yesterday. Ehhh, not fruitful at all!! Dint lose nor win at the end. The that 2 monkeys last min say cannot play 2nd round... -_-''' waste time!

Then Ling and BF to play one more round at night. To make 01's trip more fulfilling mah... if not she come all the way from NTU just to play one round with the 2 monkeys...

Uncle Ali say he's not gonna sleep tonight, coz he needa send his bro to airport at 5am. Bluff pple de, went to sleep at 330am. Offered to wake him up just before he went offline, haha, but I din't in the end, went to sleep before he is suppose to wake up. He said he's gonna meet F for breakfast after he dropped her bowling ball off... Yet at 6am, I recieved a sms, saying that he's gonna go BIRDPARK?! haha!! Three 22 yr old guys going BIRDPARK?! Super weird... well, I guess he misses his family too much, gonna visit them. HAhaa!!

Kok called last min to ask for another session in the afternoon before going to the travel agent. So 01, Kok, Wil and me played. Hmmm... lost money again... rah... so bad luck!! And in the end, we din't even go to the travel agent....

When to shy's house to play @ night. Hmmm, seems like it a weekly rountine le. Shy is still shy... haha. Well, he is rather similar to me lah, toks alot on the net, but shy in person. haha... I also shy de okie! But anyway, yah, bad luck again... lost again!!! Ahhhh...

Hmmm, shy said he went to queue for the Donuts today leh... how come he never offer me when i went to his house huh... Okie, I gonna ask him for that!! He asked me to queue with him today... CRAZY, 3 hrs for 2 dozens of donuts??!?!! WHAT?!?!?! I can just wait for him to buy and I'll just eat right? HAHaha!!! K lah, actually I thot the donuts were great when shy offered us last week at his house. But 3 hrs... really not worth it la.

Hai, let's hope that my luck will be better next week man!! Jia you~~

JAW DROPPED A HUNDRED FEET!

人身最过隐的
就是因为它有很多转角
有的转角很惊险
有的转角又充满了惊喜
是惊喜
还是惊险
不走过去
当然就不知道下一个转角
你会遇到什么
转角充满了故事
不管是在人生的旅途上
还是拥挤的街头
也许是我的
也许是你的。。。

name: xiuyun

first cry: 18th August 1986

horoscope: Leo, The Lion

sport:Bowling

school:
PAP Kindergarten
Pearl Park Primary (1A, 2A)
Pearl's Hill Primary (3C, 4C, 5A, 6A)
Chung Cheng High School(Main)
(1L, 2Justice, 3Forgiveness & 3Courage, 4Courage)
Saint Andrew's Junior College (03S13)
Nanyang Technological University (Material Engineering)

location: Pulau NTU, Hall 3

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